Funny how when the whole topic of trying crops up in my life, magazines are full of articles why people are opting not to have babies!

This month, Female magazine wrote about 3 couples that opted not to have children at all. One couple commented that it was just a matter of choice. They are too into what they are doing, which is some sort of charity work and just have no room for children. Another couple commented that, they chose not to have children simply because having children is just too important and they are simply not ready to make the commitment. Having children, according to them, is not just a decision that one can make over night. It is a big responsibility. And if they are not ready for it, they will not do it.

I have the same opinion as the second couple. I too have the opinion that you simply can’t just… spit em out. A child’s life and future will be in our hands. We can’t simply bring one into the world, when my own life is … well…. Tak tentu arah. Call me selfish, but it would be more selfish if I brought a being into the world and I am not able to make full commitment towards it. Sure, parents make mistakes all the time, its all part of parenting, but I would like to minimize these mistakes, where I can. I have to give him/ her best that I can. And I have to be in the right frame of mind to do so.

Now…. I am ready. Hubby and I both are ready.

In making that decision, I had to rethink what I want in life. What I wanted before was a career, fly high, travel, buy whatever I want whenever I want, go anywhere I want with a drop of a hat and make spontaneous decisions. I think I’ve gotten most of what I wanted and sorted myself out, now its time to move on with “whats next”. Though make the decision to move on and have a baby, I had to do some convincing to myself. Did not just snap my fingers and go “right….. phase 2”. Its hard to give up all that freedom and spare cashflow!

So what is it that made make that decision? Answer is… I don’t know. Its just the whole maternal instinct thing kicking in I guess. Plus, those baby carseats are just SO CUTE!! And Mothercare’s got really Kewl baby stuff. Hehe…

But seriously, you’d know when you are ready. It just happens. I’m glad I chose to wait. Or else, I’ll have this “Missing Youth” thing and get stressed with all those things that I want to do but did not get to. And then blame it on the kid and everything becomes a mess! Getting carried away here. But I think it can happen!

So now… bring it on…. Lets get Buzeeeeeee