I am trying hard not to panic. The unknown is making me nervous. The thing is, we don’t really know for sure yet what is affecting my infertility. We’ve decided to do the laproscopy in my next period cycle. It feels like light years away.
I was browsing through the bookshop today at the “new arrivals” section. Ocassionally, I like reading chic lits. Its light and refreshing to read, compared to serious business journals. Funny thing, there were so many chic lits on pregnancy and babies! Chic lits usually has stories on dating and on life before marriage. The whole baby thing just blew me away. I considered purchasing a copy. I could not bring myself to. I was afraid that I would be too depressed.
Meanwhile, I am trying to stay positive, healthy and remember to take my vitamins. I am also trying to be happy and make the most of my time without a child. I’ve exhausted myself with reading all I can about infertility. I don’t think I can read anymore.
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hi elinz,
ReplyDeletebeen reading your posts on & off. i too had problems when we were trying to conceive.
our first try ended in termination as our baby was sick and would be incompatible with life. it was heartbreaking and really a bad phase in our lives.
we took quite some time to conceive again as i was sick and hubby was really stressed at work. Alhamdulillah, after about a year later, (and many negative pregnancy test kits later)and after hubby quit his job, i got pregnant. we even had clomid in my purse but b4 i could take it, i found out i was pregnant.
we can never understand why some people get preggy so easily, even when they dont plan too.
now i have on my lap as i type this a 50 days old baby girl. with this little girl comes sleepless nights and sore breasts!
hang on in there. rezeki will come. enjoy life with hubby as it is.
hi there annas,
ReplyDeletethank you so much for your kind words. Many many congratulations with your baby! I am so happy for you!
I too can't understand how people can just get pregnant at the drop of a hat. Why me? Why am I that minority that has fertility problems.
I hope the doctor is able to find whatever the problem is when I have the laproscopy.
I will hang in there.